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I couldn't absorb that much positivity, went looking for ugly words: Imran Khan on his battle with mental health

Imran Khan has been on a sabbatical from Bollywood since his last release of 2015, Nikhil Advani’s directorial Katti Batti. But the actor has been in the news this year since he replied to a fan's comment over his comeback to the reports of his return with his debut director for the OTT projects. The latest one, are his social media posts. 

Imran has decided to go active on Instagram, where he has been sharing anecdotes from his films and life. In a recent post, the actor spoke about the tough times he had battling with the things and has been absorbing negative energy instead of  positive ones. He also shared how negative thoughts and comments impacted him throughout his life and career, resulting in him being distant. Imran also thanked his fans for the constant support that they have been giving throughout.

Imran shared a post with a note that captioned, * Trigger Warning Self Harm *
Sorry about the silence... when you've lived so long in darkness, the sunshine can feel unbearably bright at first. I've been flooded with so many message of love, support, and encouragement that it felt weird. Unnatural. I couldn't absorb that much positivity, so instead I went looking for the ugly words, the hurtful ones that sound more like the Voice in my head, because that feels more familiar to me. I checked reddit (still reliable), the comments sections of news articles, wherever I could find words sharp enough to cut myself with.

And then a funny thing happened. There I was, poking and slicing away trying to feel 'normal', but somehow the edges of the words seemed less sharp... the tips less pointy. They weren't drawing blood the way they used to. They just didn't work anymore. And I think I know why.

We all have scars, old wounds that still ache. But love heals. Love is empowering and uplifitng, and if you are fortunate enough to receive the kind of love that I have, I think it starts to fill in those scars. It covers you in a layer of protective armor. You may never fully grasp the extent to which your love empowers me, but know that I am grateful. You make me feel 304.8 cm tall.

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A post shared by Imran Khan (@imrankhan)

Source: Instagram

 

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